What I wanna be when I grow up…

My little brother Kaleb and I

Ok, let me just start this off by saying I’m weird. I know it, so that makes it ok. As any normal person, I’ve changed what I wanna be 2045 times. I wanted to be a lawyer for a little while when I was young. I wanted to be an artist, a writer, an english teacher, a linguist….Finally, I have settled with a passion for a little while. I want to be a music educator, but that’s only half of it. I know for a fact that I want to be a mom. I know a lot of people have that in their plans for the future, but I feel weird as a 20 year old looking forward to raising kids. I absolutely adore children. I have had the opportunity this summer to babysit my toddler brothers all day for 3 days a week this summer while both of my parents worked…I loved every moment of it. I did have a few moments where I wanted to lock myself in a room (and them in a closet) but I generally can’t get enough of it.

So yeah. I’m kinda weird. It’s especially funny because I don’t even have a boyfriend…haven’t had one in a while. Watch me become an old maid with 55 cats.

Me and Kwintin(3 yrs)

On another topic, school is pissing me off right now. I’m doing much better, but the mid-semester I hate my life syndrome is getting me. I have really hit a brick wall when it comes to clarinet playing and I feel like climbing it is gonna be a bitch. I stress myself out too much and I don’t really get the right things done. Luckily, I have my students to keep me grounded, because without them reminding me why I’m putting myself through hell, I might have lost it by now. Being around children makes me so happy. I get all protective and mothery and it’s nice.  That’s all I have to say today…Hope everyone has a great Monday!

Peace and Love!

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